An old photograph
By R. Gibson-Forbes
A babe in arms
looks past the carriage four,
reins firmly held in check
by coachman.
Past the young woman’s straw hat,
and the workman with polished shoes,
buttoned waistcoat and watch chain.
Past the curious onlookers.
I stare at you, the crowd drawer:
Head in box, under the black sheet.
Then standing still, counting out,
timing sullen statues.
My eyes would see inside you.
Etch out the glass.
Stare you down.
Enter your eye.
Your eye, evermore thinks me a girl.
While I, a boy, destined for
gunfire, rifle barrels, and a name carved in granite.
Unknown by you, unrecognised.
Captured by you, stared at,
coo-ed over.
for all time.
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Heaven on Earth
By Rita Price
Her breath formed clouds of steam in the icy air as she walked quickly down the hill towards the bridge. She peered into the dim, street-lit night, looking for her beloved son. There was dampness in the wintry atmosphere, which clung to her skin, chilling her physically and emotionally.
Her mouth felt dry. She licked her lips, tasted fear. Had she missed him? The town was quiet; no passing traffic, only the sound of her hurried footsteps clicking on the frosted pavement. Halos of light encircled the street lamps making the scene unreal to her stressed mind.
Mentally she castigated her absent husband. Why was he late? Had he forgotten it was Gareth’s B.B. night? It was only with extreme reluctance that she had left her daughter sleeping in the locked house while she set off on foot to meet her teenage son. He had instructions to start for home if no-one was waiting at the church hall. She fervently uttered a prayer that she would soon catch sight of him and all would be well. Mind you, it was still uphill back to the house and the cosy warmth of their semi-detached.
Once again she strained her myopic eyes, hoping that, from a distance, his uniform and his familiar outline would bring her early recognition. Her spectacles misted as her breath condensed on the cold lenses. Wait! What was that?
A small figure strode towards her on the same side of the bridge, which spanned the River Ythan; it had to be Gareth. But there was something odd. Sprouting from either side of the approaching figure were two huge white wings. Her heart leapt, then froze. An angel? What did this mean? Crazy thoughts tumbled through her near paranoid mind. Her overwrought imagination went into overdrive. Had something happened to Gareth that he now appeared to her in changed form before leaving for a celestial destination?
An encounter with a car while crossing the road? A fatal trip or fall? Her mind raced and all manner of dreadful possibilities presented themselves to her as Gareth, for it was indeed him, stepped towards her with more urgency. As he did so the wings appeared to detach and she now realised a different danger. Behind her oblivious son, walked a large swan with wings outspread.
She knew that swans, if they attacked, could inflict damage with their strong beaks, break an arm with their powerful wings. She cried a warning to Gareth. “Careful! There’s a swan right behind you.”
Gareth turned and faced the beast; its appearance now almost mythological to her in the haze. Gareth, though, apparently unconcerned at its menacing closeness, stretched out his arms in calm reassurance and spoke soothingly to the bird.
“It’s okay. Do you need help?”
As if by way of an answer, the swan turned away, staggered onto the middle of the road and sat down. Traffic, absent earlier, now built up and cars were forced to slow and edge around the obstruction. The evening filled with noise and bustle.
Staff in the nearby Buchan Hotel were informed of the swan’s predicament before she and Gareth headed for home at a smart pace.
“I left your sister alone. If your dad’s home he will be wondering where we are. We have quite a story to tell. Why do you think the swan was doing on the bridge at this time of night? Could it be ill?”
In years to come they often speculated about that incident without reaching a satisfactory conclusion. Perhaps you know the answer, dear reader?
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Bread and Potatoes
By Gemma Fearnley
“Damn weather.”
Lottie felt a momentary pang of shame with the utterance of the curse but shook off its emerging presence as soon as it pricked her conscience. The Lord had better things to do, surely, than to smite her for her blasphemous words. Yet she mumbled a plea for retribution nonetheless. The Minister’s sermon that Sunday had reached its mark for once. She may have been participating in an energetic kicking battle with her younger brother, Hamish, whilst the Minister made his vehement condemnation of the Hell that awaited all child sinners, but the general ideas had still managed to inject themselves into her feverish imagination. She had subsequently resolved, after much consideration and conference with Hamish, that it was better to stay on His good side. Yet the weather did deserve to experience a smidgen of damnation, if just for today, so Lottie didn’t feel as full of regret as she perhaps should.
The trudge across the sodden fields was punishing. Ahead, the castle, distorted by the thick bands of harr rolling off the river, loomed over the landscape like one of Hell’s demons, risen to bring her to justice. Or so it seemed to her, after her recent encounter with enlightenment. She shivered and pulled her basket more tightly to her.
Thick, grey mud surrounded her. It crept up to her mid-calves as she waded through it, saturating her woollen skirt until it weighed down her every step. Despite the urgency of the delivery with which she’d been charged, she could move at no more pace than an ungainly shuffle. The mud sucked at her foot as she struggled to take another step. The effort unbalanced and pitched her face-first towards the cloying muck. The basket slipped from her grasp and her arms wheeled wildly in a vain attempt to prevent her fall. She could see nothing but grey, taste nothing but rank, festering vegetation. Lottie floundered in the rut, disorientated. She pushed with her feet and raked with her hands, but to no avail; she was stuck. Yet with much sliding and huffing and yelps of indignation she managed to gain, somewhere in the slime, a foothold. She spat mud from her mouth then scrubbed the sodden shawl across her face. Her eyes searched for the basket until she spotted it, upturned, a few feet away. A despairing cry ripped through Lottie’s chest as she lumbered towards it, leaden-limbed. Falling to her knees, she gathered to her chest as many of the spilled items as she could before wrapping them back inside the now mud-soaked blanket.
“No, no, no, no, no” she moaned, feeding potato-by-potato back into the basket. She dropped her head onto her chest for a moment, hunching herself against the imagined onslaught she was now bound to receive. Brushing away the strands of hair spilling out from under her too-big bonnet, she heaved a sigh.
“O’ merciful Lord, dinna let ma father be angry wi’ me.”
She pulled herself slowly to her feet and heaved the basket into both arms. The deer dykes appeared out of the think fog before her, the cry of men’s chatter ringing across the lonely fields. The laughter wouldn’t last long, of that she had now made sure.
~
Lottie trudged towards the crowd of men leaning against the half-finished dykes. A scattering of whistles and jeers greeted her, but she averted her eyes and refused to acknowledge them. She clutched the basket tighter to her chest.
Those last yards felt the longest she had ever endured. Each step, each breath made her want to turn tail and run. To hide; preferably under the bed she shared with Beth, where even now she played pretend-games imagining that they were princesses hiding from an evil wizard. But she was an adult. Sixteen years old. It was her mess and she would face the resulting punishment.
She stopped in front of her father, her confidence finally failing her. She bowed her head, fixed her eyes on her mud-covered boots.
“I-um-I got yer tatties for ye, sir.”
“Are ye goin tae gie me ’em then, or am ah supposed to guess fit they taste like?”
She heard the raised eyebrow in her father’s gruff voice, even as she deliberately averted her eyes from his scarf-covered face. She gulped and thrust the basket towards him.
A man to her side chuckled. “If yer supposed tae be eatin those then yer missis is one harsh bawd, Joe!”
Lottie looked up, her face flushed, the words rushing from her mouth like a torrent. “I fell, sir, I’m sorry. I didna mean to but I couldnae go back or else mam would’a no been happy wi’ me!”
Her father studied her, his eyes calm behind his balaclava. “Yer a silly wee thing ain’t ye Lottie? Fancy be’en upset oe’er a few mucky tatties!”
Lottie allowed the warm glow of the oil lamp to seep through her layers of clothes, a small smile crossing her face as her blue skin began to thaw in its wake. She gazed at the men who had returned to work at the dykes, watched with awe the methodical lifting and placing of rock upon rock - the soft ‘thump’ of the stones as they fell into place, creating a dividing wall in what had, just a couple of days ago, been an expanse of barren fields. Her father had deigned to stay behind rather than return to work; his excuse - “I cannae let a pretty wee lassie stay oot a’ alone can ah?” - was poor in the extreme, but Lottie found herself unable to berate him his laziness. And so it was that they found themselves, father and daughter, hunched side by side over a small oil lamp, jostling for the meagre warmth it emitted as their backs rested against the metal rungs of a cart wheel.
“So how does it look then, Lottie? Are ye impressed yet?”
He was fishing for compliments. Lottie scrunched up her nose, watched her breath spiral upwards in smoky tendrils to become lost in the mist and harr above. “It’s just a wall, da. Ye’ve still nae really explained fit it’s been built fer.”
Her father chuckled. “It’s work, lass. Work fer folks like me, who dinna hae much money. We’ll be rollin’ in it soon, fit wi’ that new road n a’-”
Lottie snorted, a sharp twinge of anger poking at her viciously. “I don’t want the new road. Naebody wants the new road! It’s gonna turn the town into a… a criminal’s bedsit! Into a hovel!”
Her father shifted beside her, not in agitation, she felt, but in curiosity. Lottie bit the inside of her cheek, realising too late that she’d done it again, put her foot in it, spoken without thinking of the consequences. Her father released a breath, his joining hers, weaving around each other as they danced upwards into the twilight. He readied himself and she, in turn, prepared herself mentally for the beginning of what she had no doubt would be one of his self-indulgent philosophical discussions, wishing that she had, just for once, remembered to restrain her wayward tongue.
“An’ why d’ye say that?”
She shrugged away from the voice, scowling at her boots. She mumbled something unintelligible at them. Her father sighed in return, weary.
“Ye need a reason, lass. Ye can’t jest say things wi’oot havin’ guid reason.”
Her head shot up, her eyes sparkling in anger at the implication of his statement. “I do have reason! Plenty o’ reason! I listen to what people say. I’ve heard what’s gonna happen!”
“Ye’ve heard a’ the gossip, Lotts. That’s nae the same as makin’ yer own opinion.”
She glared at her father, her face red, unwarranted tears welling in her fierce eyes.
“I’m no stupid, Da. I ain’t some glaikit lass who canna even tie her own shoes let alone read… I know ma own thoughts.”
Her father smiled indulgently. “Aye, but d’ye have the sense to question ’em?”
She paused. “What d’ye mean?”
Her father smiled again, shuffling closer to the lamp as he did so. “How d’ye think we get oil in this ere parts, Lottie?”
The question confused her. The answer seemed obvious; was it a trick? “We… buy it?”
Her father nodded, waved his hand at her to carry on. Lottie was at a loss. She stared at him, feeling more stupid with every passing second of lingering silence.
“With money, lass,” her father finished.
She reddened at the simplicity of it; he did think she was a fool. Before she could complain, however, a hand lifted, quietening her.
“An’ fer money, people like us, poorer folks-”
“We ain’t poor!”
“In some ways we ain’t, Lottie. In others we are. Money, for instance. Fer money, we need work, like these ere dykes.”
“So?”
“So, Lottie, the building o’ these dykes winna last fer long. Sooner or later, wither ye like it or not, I’m gonna be struggling fer work again.”
Lottie shook her head, uncomprehending.
“The road gives us that work.”
She stilled, rolling the words inside her head as she tried to glean the meaning her father was clearly expecting she would notice was there. She came up blank. “I don’t- but it’s-” She stopped, struggling. “But we don’t need it. We’re fine here. The track’s fine.”
“It’s old, lass. Nae guid fer the new carts. Nae practical fer these days. If we dinnae put it in, the toon’s nae gonna grow, Lotts. What wi a’ the new technology, we need to keep up tae date. We cannae let ourselves fall behind.”
“But I work. So does Hamish n’ Ma. We dinnae need it. We’re guid, Da. We’re fine.”
Her father huffed in exasperation, rummaged in the basket for something. He pulled out a slice of bread and a small, slightly deformed potato. His face was lit up in satisfaction. “Food, Lottie. Potatoes, Bread. You don’t earn enough fer food. Ye hardly earn enough for the tatty clothes on yer wee back. Ye know the famine o’er in Ireland?”
A shake of the head.
“People are dyin’ there. Hundreds o’ people. Parents, kiddies, Gran’parents. I’m no sayin’ that it’s gonna be like ‘at ere but if…” He paused. “They can’t stop it, Lotts. They can’t buy the food. We can. Should. This road is…nothing in comparison to the problems others face but if you dinna mak sure ye know the whole story, it could be. Fer us.”
Lottie nibbled her lip, a nervous habit. “But it’s no all guid, Da.”
“No, its not. But sometimes ye’ve gotta take the lesser o two evils, lass, n be happy wi what ye’ve got. Life’s nae a’ rosy red apples, Lottie.”
She frowned, catching the potato her father tossed in her direction. She held it between her hands, caressing it as she studied it, noting the colour, texture, even the smell of drying mud that lingered on it as she mulled her father’s words over in her head. The idea he had introduced seemed foreign, almost entirely nonsensical. How could you agree to something, knowing full well the problems that could arise from it? Knowing full well that the problems, if they did arise, would have a very real effect on you? She thought. The quiet between them stretched on; the light of the lamp dimmed as the oil gradually burnt away, the only sign of its presence a black, charred mark across the glass. Her father watched her, his face patient. A small smile touched her lips as she looked out towards the men at the dykes, their backs straining with the effort of the hammers, their grunts echoing across the field as they strove to build their wall. She snuggled closer to the lamp. Suddenly the world seemed just that little bit greyer. That little bit less comprehensible.
“Perhaps not.”
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The Sleeping Heroes By Helen Watson
There you go, marching down the road
dressed in your bright new uniform, off
to fight for King and Country, your
mother’s tears still damp upon your face.
But fate dealt you, lad, a deadly hand
For now you lie in some far away
foreign land.
No longer part of the human race.
The town erect a fine memorial, best
grey granite, finely tooled and polished
it stands in the square with blood-red
poppies all around. Your name’s up there
and that’s no disgrace.
Every year a big parade and a
march to honour the dead.
A two-minute silence that seems so mean.
It’s no true reflection of our esteem.
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